How About Replacing Worry With Actions?

One of my favourite spot in campus was the centre of the rugby pitch.Saturday and Sunday were the most quiet days in campus.The environment was relaxed and the breeze was cool.On a Sunday after church,I could go take lunch and at around 1500 hrs,I would go sit down in a lotus position like one doing yoga meditation.My mind would start wandering into the issues of life.The biggest questions would be;

What will my future look like?
Will I be successful in  by all standards?
Why am I still in this world?
Was I born to become part of the statistics and just go?
Who will I marry?
Will I be able to go to heights I've seen other people go?
Will I afford decent life? A car? A home? Good education for my kids?
I usually left that spot with more questions than answers.

At times I just lay there and just forget the many questions about life.But then again they never ended,they kept on ring in my heart.I just had to find a solution.A solution I did not know where I would start.Some times, I would wish  I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth that I did not have to worry of what will  happen to my future.Especially in terms of financial provision.Do I have to toil so much that I will be able to provide for my rent,food and securing financial future of my future family?
The more I neared clearing school, the more worried I became.The more worried I became, the more worried I continued to be,the more helpless the situation became.

Fast forward.
In my cup right now, some of the questions I was worried about five years ago, have been answered. In fact, I wonder why I was worried. Right now, though, I have realized something. The questions I worried then have build up into something different. For instance, the question who I will marry; I already know who I will marry, but the questions now are; how will our marriage be? will I be a good husband? will we be happy?

Life happens in phases. At any phase there will still be more questions than the answers available. Nonetheless, choose one thing, not to be worried even a second. For what you  are worried now will cease to be an issue tomorrow. Just edge an action plan and stay focused to it. A milestone at a time.

The Fearless.

I used to spend time and play with kids in my boyhood.Even now I still do.Kids are just amazing.
Especially when they are in a certain age where everything seems impossible.A lot runs my mind when you listen to their questions and the things they ask you to do.

Their dad is the strongest man they know.
They have to fight to get what they want by all means through sheer persistence.
They ask anything,anywhere,anyhow.
They dare try new things.They explore.
They learn quickly and adapt super fast.
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I wonder, where did kid fearlessness go?
Do I have to be scared and wonder what other people had to say about me?
Why can't I speak out my heart the way a kid does,honestly and openly?
Can't I pursue the music in my heart without being the crowd drowning it?
Where did the aggression go? Can't I play the game of life boldly?
When will I break off the barriers and go for what is in my heart?
Why can't I see possibility in everything instead of impossibilities?

Is it not better to try and fail than fail to try?
Is it not better  to ask and the answer is 'no'  than assume the answer has already been set?
If I don't stand up for what I want in life who will?
If I don't adapt and learn quickly in the ever changing world,am I not waiting for my extinction?
What is holding me back?

What Will You Do?

When they talk dirty and ignoble in your ears,
When they flip through an explicit video in your eyes,
When she touches you and thoughts start running your mind,
When your body demand for more sensations,
What will you do? Will you say everybody is doing it?

When they disregard the walk of brethren,
When they openly tell you church is full of hypocrites,
When they lead a prayerless and Wordless life,
When doctrine run through the media and you're wondering what to believe,
What will you do? Will you just remain silent?

When you've no job and all the I want is 'tea'.
When you want promotion and all they want is what you've reserved for your spouse,
When they back bite in your job and business,
When you've been unfairly dismissed,
What will you do? Will you give in?

When retrenchment is happening all over,
When tough economic times hit and business stand on shaky ground,
When it's even hard to provide for basic family needs,
When all the friends you had depart from you,
What will you do?Will you drain your life into alcohol?

When the person you trusted most betray you,
When the people you thought you can count on turn against you,
When no one wants to be associated with you,
When she hands you the divorce papers,
What will you do?Will you commit suicide?

Tough times will always be there,

All The Difference

BELIEVE – while others are doubting.

PLAN – while others are playing.

STUDY – while others are sleeping.

DECIDE– while others are delaying.

PREPARE– while others are daydreaming.

BEGIN – while others are procrastinating.

WORK – while others are wishing.

INVEST– while others are wasting.

LISTEN– while others are talking.

SMILE – while others are frowning.

COMMEND – while others are criticizing.

PERSIST – while others are quitting.

Everyday is Valentine

All through everyday,

You've won red,at heart.

You've maintained a bouquet of flowers,fresh.

You've been a gift,priceless.

Thinking Love,is thinking Wink,

Thinking  Wink,is thinking treasure,

Thinking treasure,is thinking life,

Thinking life,is thinking future,

Thinking future, is together with Mercy. 

In my lowest moment you've stood with me,

In my highest moments you've been proud of me.

In my outbursting moments,you've remained calm for me.

In my broke moments,you've taken water with me.

In my failing moments you've forgiven me 

Nothing can reciprocate your unconditional love for me,

Nothing can pay the sacrifices you've made for me,

Nothing can equate,the patience you've had for me,

Nothing can compare,the feel good you give me.

Nothing and noone can occupy,the special room you've in me.

Every day,

I will pray for you and us.

I will always understand you.

I will always be there for you.

I will give you my all that you may need.

I will seek the best for you and us.

I will always seek to make you happy. 

And today,tomorrow and forever,

I promise to love you unconditionally.

All In The Album

In their 20's,it was one of those classic couple,

Her hair curled like that of Irene Cara,

His stature must be the reason mantra;tall dark and handsome.

They were looking vibrant,

Full of vibration,

The vibe of their peers,they must have been.

They had nil children then,

Now they have three;29,25,21.

How they now look, all in the album.

The only single day he wore shoes at primary school was in class 3,receiving an award,

The only trace of his dad ever attending a church service was in 1999,receiving baptism.

How can he forget how his green,white and black uniform at secondary school,

And the serious look he wore when he turned 18.

He is now the 25 yr old kid,the age his dad was when he wore the mantra.

The boyhood,iall in the album. 

A handshake receiving another award,this time in form one.

Everything remains quiet till form four.

Memories were rekindled,

From surrendering at the principal's office.

Serving at the science laboratory.

Good friends made,it's all in the album. 

Unitàtè et Labore.

The labore was soccer and table tennis.

The labore was going for hikes from Ngong hills to Longonot.

The labore was capturing all the moments that were happening and posting them in social media,

The labore was being amongst people..

The 'labore' ,all in the album. 

It gives a piece of memory after memory.

It  reminds us were young and now old but His faithfulness abides in us.

It reminds us we will not be young forever.

Reminds us of the time we used with people who were just but wind in our lives.

It reminds us after all is said and done,only memories left.

It's all in the album. 

As you read this,

The the album is full.

Though more photos keep on coming,

Life is at a different lane,

Still finding a footing in it.

Some day generation will look back,feel and learn.

May they be proud of all that will be in the album.

All She Desires.

A pen and paper,she inked;

Don't coin happiness if you are hurting,

Don't take everything too serious,

Don't remember my past mistakes,

Don't forgive me if you don't mean it,

Don't stay for ages,MARRY me sooooon! 

A phone and finger,she texted;

Love God more than me,

Let me go home in time,I am still daddy's gal,

Take more risk for life is for risk takers,

Be better today than yesterday for us. 

A break and offline,she responded;

Instead of 'you could have' use 'how about',

Perfectionism is not of this world avoid,

Never judge me,it's just unfair,

Don't make me feel guilty,we all make mistakes.

A silence and no word,she felt;

How do I tell him how much I love him,

May he be patient with me,

to continue working on become better day by day.

Sorry for all the heartaches.

I never meant to hurt you.

A talk and presence,she said;

One thing;

Be strong for me.